we do nothing but change.....
im still adapting to the current situation where there is a tremendous need for me to organise my time, my work...bla..bla..bla....i need to get away...perhaps to Langkawi, or any other beautiful places....
9 months ago, in another country...i had only 10-20 students in my classes, but now im having almost 150 students, nearing 200, sooo many of them...they are talented...different...full of determination... noisy...that's what i love about them.... being a lecturer and to be able to give lecture to those students really teaches me in a way to appreciate life.... with so many of them and attending to their queries......again im still adapting.
im experiencing a short-term memory loss due to overloaded with so many things to do. my students mumbling about im being so forgetful , things that ive said in classses, things ive promised, mid-term dates...etc..etc..tests..etc..etc...now i know that it's not easy to be a student myself when im lecturing at the same time. but actually it's not difficult either...it's all in the state of mind.....
chow!
Wednesday, March 11, 2009
Friday, March 6, 2009
my old guitar
actually im waiting for a friend to chat online and to discuss about our assignment, and im still waiting.
well there's nothing much to talk about today, aside from the fact that i was totally busy today,
i realised one thing...if we say we are busy and dont have the time, we will have no time..but if we really really say that we have the time...we will find a time for us to do whatever that we need to do. as a friend of mine ( the guy whom i had a crush on in campus, and a cute one too) once said 'kalau kata takde masa, memang takdelah' ...heheheh.
so my point is that i want to talk about my old guitar... i bought it in 1991, that was 18 years ago, i learned how to play guitar from my father when i was 12 years old. i can still recall the beautiful memories dancing and singing to my father's songs while he played the guitar.... i can still remember the way my father smiled looking at myself and my sisters jumping around, enjoying to the tunes... how i long for those days...how i miss my father's smile, the way he talked...the way he walked... it feels just like yesterday he left us....
then when i was in form 2, i went to yamaha music school and completed the fundamental stage within 3 months. completed another 2 stages..then..puff! i quit due to spm examinations. i consider myself as an amateur player, still learning. just the other day i went to yamaha music centre in IOI mall with my students. they were very helpful and i appreciate their effort. i didnt know that yamaha music centre has been there all the while.. im thinking to buy another guitar, it's just that i dont know when..
when i play the guitar and sing to my favorite tunes, all of my problems seem so far away, i sing with all my heart. i believe that i can sing...not a professional singer though, but just for my ears , singing just to entertain myself. to me auditions are too scary... i dont care about what others think about the way i paly my guitar, the way i sing, whatever they say have no effect on me... insignificant. but one thing's for sure, i make myself and my family entertained with my songs. if im bored, i would sing from the top of my lungs with my mum and my cute sis.
playing musical instument also teaches you to feel with your heart or to nurture your subconscious mind. it amazes me the way professional musicians work with their instruments. i wish i could play guitar like a pro, unfortunately i dont have the time to indulge into music as i have trillions of other important things to do.
ok til the next writings...
well there's nothing much to talk about today, aside from the fact that i was totally busy today,
i realised one thing...if we say we are busy and dont have the time, we will have no time..but if we really really say that we have the time...we will find a time for us to do whatever that we need to do. as a friend of mine ( the guy whom i had a crush on in campus, and a cute one too) once said 'kalau kata takde masa, memang takdelah' ...heheheh.
so my point is that i want to talk about my old guitar... i bought it in 1991, that was 18 years ago, i learned how to play guitar from my father when i was 12 years old. i can still recall the beautiful memories dancing and singing to my father's songs while he played the guitar.... i can still remember the way my father smiled looking at myself and my sisters jumping around, enjoying to the tunes... how i long for those days...how i miss my father's smile, the way he talked...the way he walked... it feels just like yesterday he left us....
then when i was in form 2, i went to yamaha music school and completed the fundamental stage within 3 months. completed another 2 stages..then..puff! i quit due to spm examinations. i consider myself as an amateur player, still learning. just the other day i went to yamaha music centre in IOI mall with my students. they were very helpful and i appreciate their effort. i didnt know that yamaha music centre has been there all the while.. im thinking to buy another guitar, it's just that i dont know when..
when i play the guitar and sing to my favorite tunes, all of my problems seem so far away, i sing with all my heart. i believe that i can sing...not a professional singer though, but just for my ears , singing just to entertain myself. to me auditions are too scary... i dont care about what others think about the way i paly my guitar, the way i sing, whatever they say have no effect on me... insignificant. but one thing's for sure, i make myself and my family entertained with my songs. if im bored, i would sing from the top of my lungs with my mum and my cute sis.
playing musical instument also teaches you to feel with your heart or to nurture your subconscious mind. it amazes me the way professional musicians work with their instruments. i wish i could play guitar like a pro, unfortunately i dont have the time to indulge into music as i have trillions of other important things to do.
ok til the next writings...
Tuesday, March 3, 2009
toastmasters club
i thank my employer for giving me the opportunity to be a part of the in-house toastmasters team. when i first joined the session, i got the best table topic speaker. it was wonderful! then i realised toastmasters is about capturing the audience's attention just in a matter or minutes! how do you capture people's attention just within 3-5 minutes? i didnt know that i am able to do the toastmasters thing.... then the second session, although i didnt get the title for the best speech, i did manage to get full attention and full support from the floor. my topic was 'love has no colour'. it was a story about my family retrospectively from my great grandfather days up till now, where we embraced and still embracing the philosophy of 'love has no colour'. My great grandfather came to malaya all the way from Mysore India, got married to my great grandmother a beautiful ceylonese lady, and my grandfather married to a lovely chinese lady, the tradition went on as my late father married my mum, a beautiful malay girl. but most of all my father discovered the beauty of being a Muslim first, then he got married to my mum, Alhamdullillah......
my point is that dont be afraid to venture into things that you're unsure of, go for it and you will discover the impossible....just like the slogan of adidas...impossible is nothing!
my point is that dont be afraid to venture into things that you're unsure of, go for it and you will discover the impossible....just like the slogan of adidas...impossible is nothing!
crazy week
have you ever feel like you're drowning in a pool of tasks until you dont know what to think and dont know what to do? even with a planner and timetable and everything, it seems like you're doing nothing?
last week was the craziest week ever, carried out 2 major presentations....prepared 3 assignments.... tina and marina kept chasing me for the Decision Making final exam papers....arghhhhhh.......kak zaharah kept chasing me for the lesson plans of all of the subjects that im lecturing in.....i have one more module to prepare and it's commercial law subject! waaaaaaaaa.......................i know...i know... it's my responsibility to prepare all of those modules and exam questions....the academic girls were just doing their job and they are all lovely people............Thank Allah...i managed to complete everything as planned although there were some hicups....fuhhhh...
sometimes i wonder....what if im married and im studying and working at the same time, how would i react to all these things? most of the time im grateful for not being a married person and having kids at the moment....fuhhh.... but definitely i will get married, once i complete my studies, Insyaallah.......
i have a wonderful team for my Human Resource Management class, they really help each other a lot and i believe that all of us in the team are winners, with regards to attitude and personality. personally, i dont really love the subject but because of my team, they have taught me to love it.
so now im embracing the philosophy of love whatever i do and i will be loved in return.
what else? at the moment im contemplating on whether or not to complete the mid term exam questions tonight. perhaps im exhausted....too tired to think.
ok then, till the next post
last week was the craziest week ever, carried out 2 major presentations....prepared 3 assignments.... tina and marina kept chasing me for the Decision Making final exam papers....arghhhhhh.......kak zaharah kept chasing me for the lesson plans of all of the subjects that im lecturing in.....i have one more module to prepare and it's commercial law subject! waaaaaaaaa.......................i know...i know... it's my responsibility to prepare all of those modules and exam questions....the academic girls were just doing their job and they are all lovely people............Thank Allah...i managed to complete everything as planned although there were some hicups....fuhhhh...
sometimes i wonder....what if im married and im studying and working at the same time, how would i react to all these things? most of the time im grateful for not being a married person and having kids at the moment....fuhhh.... but definitely i will get married, once i complete my studies, Insyaallah.......
i have a wonderful team for my Human Resource Management class, they really help each other a lot and i believe that all of us in the team are winners, with regards to attitude and personality. personally, i dont really love the subject but because of my team, they have taught me to love it.
so now im embracing the philosophy of love whatever i do and i will be loved in return.
what else? at the moment im contemplating on whether or not to complete the mid term exam questions tonight. perhaps im exhausted....too tired to think.
ok then, till the next post
Sunday, February 15, 2009
it has been 3 months since i wrote in my blog....
life has been wonderful, full of activities, 18 hours of lectures a week, attend lectures every week.......waaaaaa...... but that's the price i have to pay in order to improve myself and my future. well dats life... no pain ..no gain...
after my graduation 10 years ago, going back to school brings back memories... I wanted to explore the other horizon of learning, everybody knows Masters degree requires lots of group work....dealing with people from various backgrounds.....different nationalities... i guess in life the most important thing is to possess the ability to adapt. without it... we will go no where....
there's a saying by Mr. Joe Calloway.... the author of 'work like you're showing off'... mistakes won't kill us, complacency will! my point is that we have to embrace change regardless whether we like it or not.
it's all in the state of mind, you attract what you think. you know what? it's true.
i started out my career as a Property Valuation Evecutive for 6 years, then one day ive decided to change my career path and wanted to be a lecturer. Teaching has always been a passion, i never wanted to pursue a career in real estate. Before i went to Brunei, i actually told myself that all i wanted is to be a Lecturer, then I became a lecturer there. just before i came back to USJ, i told myself again that i will only want to be a lecturer, and i got it. coz my ambition is to get myself a Phd someday in the near future. which i truly believe i will get it, ALLAH's willing.
I'm very grateful for living my life the way i live now, despite the fact that i miss my twin sister and my nephew so much.....
actually there's nothing much to talk about in today's post, aside from the fact that im having a slight fever, sore throat and toothache.
ok till then chow!
life has been wonderful, full of activities, 18 hours of lectures a week, attend lectures every week.......waaaaaa...... but that's the price i have to pay in order to improve myself and my future. well dats life... no pain ..no gain...
after my graduation 10 years ago, going back to school brings back memories... I wanted to explore the other horizon of learning, everybody knows Masters degree requires lots of group work....dealing with people from various backgrounds.....different nationalities... i guess in life the most important thing is to possess the ability to adapt. without it... we will go no where....
there's a saying by Mr. Joe Calloway.... the author of 'work like you're showing off'... mistakes won't kill us, complacency will! my point is that we have to embrace change regardless whether we like it or not.
it's all in the state of mind, you attract what you think. you know what? it's true.
i started out my career as a Property Valuation Evecutive for 6 years, then one day ive decided to change my career path and wanted to be a lecturer. Teaching has always been a passion, i never wanted to pursue a career in real estate. Before i went to Brunei, i actually told myself that all i wanted is to be a Lecturer, then I became a lecturer there. just before i came back to USJ, i told myself again that i will only want to be a lecturer, and i got it. coz my ambition is to get myself a Phd someday in the near future. which i truly believe i will get it, ALLAH's willing.
I'm very grateful for living my life the way i live now, despite the fact that i miss my twin sister and my nephew so much.....
actually there's nothing much to talk about in today's post, aside from the fact that im having a slight fever, sore throat and toothache.
ok till then chow!
Sunday, November 23, 2008
new horizons
it feels like as though this year moves very slowly... 2009 is coming and im glad and grateful that im lecturing and studying at the same time.......yahooo...
nothing is as exiting as being in a process of getting to know someone who i believe has been sent by GOD... Insyaalah .....
nothing is as exiting as being in a process of getting to know someone who i believe has been sent by GOD... Insyaalah .....
Tuesday, May 27, 2008
3rd song-Loving You
the lyrics of my third song:-
They say that true love is hard to find
i say that my love is one of a kind
coz when u came into my life
i'm capable of love...
i've been broken hearted
and i have been cheated
but when you came into my life
i'm capable of love...
now i know that you're mine
in your eyes the stars shine
we know we'll be fine
devine....
chorus
loving you....
i could shape a mountain
you shower me your love
just like a fountain
and i realise
that i will always be by your side
holding you
i could see tomorrow
there will be no more
sadness or sorrow
and i realise
that i will always be by your side
They say that true love is hard to find
i say that my love is one of a kind
coz when u came into my life
i'm capable of love...
i've been broken hearted
and i have been cheated
but when you came into my life
i'm capable of love...
now i know that you're mine
in your eyes the stars shine
we know we'll be fine
devine....
chorus
loving you....
i could shape a mountain
you shower me your love
just like a fountain
and i realise
that i will always be by your side
holding you
i could see tomorrow
there will be no more
sadness or sorrow
and i realise
that i will always be by your side
Lagu tak terpilih? Alhamdulillah
I dont watch Akademi Fantasia, stopped at AF3. after that? not interested. why? everybody knows that the students cant sing, the selection of songs were horrible. Then one day somewhere mid of March, i watched AF for the first time in 3 years, AF announced that there is a song writing competition, I told myself why not enter the competition, just give it a try. the timing was right as Maynard just came back from the Philipines, he is good in all of those music software and stuffs, so i embarked on a journey of song writing. i didnt know that i can write. i believe that the song that ive composed sounds fairly good. im proud of my songs.
after a month, i got to know that my song was not selected, ive heard the songs that have been selected for the finalist of AF6 to sing, Astaqfirullahalazim!!!! The songs are horrible! Even the finalists were reluctant to say that the songs are good, the look at their faces tells a thousand stories.
I really pity the finalists coz they had to sing the songs that the principal selected, kasihan.....
well, it's ok ....although my song was not selected, im still very grateful coz at least i know that i can write songs, at the moment i have 5 songs, still counting.....
Now that I know
I'm always in your heart
And you know
you're always in my mind
And we know
We will never be apart
Now that you know
I'm always by your side
And i know
you're my shoulder when i cry
And we know
we can make it work if we try
coz i know that you love me so...
and you know that i love you so....
chorus
I thank GOD i meet you now
if i dont i dont know how
when you came into my life
my spirit comes to live
I thank GOD that i love you now
And since then we have pledged a vow
and from now we join our hearts
and we'll make it a beautiful start
coz i know that you love me so....
and you know that i love you so....
after a month, i got to know that my song was not selected, ive heard the songs that have been selected for the finalist of AF6 to sing, Astaqfirullahalazim!!!! The songs are horrible! Even the finalists were reluctant to say that the songs are good, the look at their faces tells a thousand stories.
I really pity the finalists coz they had to sing the songs that the principal selected, kasihan.....
well, it's ok ....although my song was not selected, im still very grateful coz at least i know that i can write songs, at the moment i have 5 songs, still counting.....
Now that I know
I'm always in your heart
And you know
you're always in my mind
And we know
We will never be apart
Now that you know
I'm always by your side
And i know
you're my shoulder when i cry
And we know
we can make it work if we try
coz i know that you love me so...
and you know that i love you so....
chorus
I thank GOD i meet you now
if i dont i dont know how
when you came into my life
my spirit comes to live
I thank GOD that i love you now
And since then we have pledged a vow
and from now we join our hearts
and we'll make it a beautiful start
coz i know that you love me so....
and you know that i love you so....
Thursday, March 27, 2008
My song
my love
dont you know
you're the one that i adore
my love
it's alright
i will always be by your side..... by your side
i'll be there just like your shining star
i'll be there though near or far
you wont be lonely and lonesome tonight
just by calling out my name
my love
dont you know
i will love you forever more
forever more.......
dont you know
you're the one that i adore
my love
it's alright
i will always be by your side..... by your side
i'll be there just like your shining star
i'll be there though near or far
you wont be lonely and lonesome tonight
just by calling out my name
my love
dont you know
i will love you forever more
forever more.......
A brand new day with a brand new feeling
I refuse to hate.........
i will not let hatred consume me....
i just want to live my life to the fullest...
i want to feast my eyes on the beautiful surroundings around me.....
i want to enjoy the warmth and friendliness that surround me.....
i want to embrace love and to have passion in whatever that i'm doing......
coz i know the beautiful things that i will be getting..........
i will not let hatred consume me....
i just want to live my life to the fullest...
i want to feast my eyes on the beautiful surroundings around me.....
i want to enjoy the warmth and friendliness that surround me.....
i want to embrace love and to have passion in whatever that i'm doing......
coz i know the beautiful things that i will be getting..........
Saturday, March 22, 2008
Alhamdulillah
Aku sayang padaMU ya ALLAH, thank you for loving me by sending that human being to make me a stronger person.
Sunday, February 17, 2008
HE’S NOT WORTH TO GIVE MY WHOLE HEART TO…
Why am I feeling this way?
I don’t even understand myself, I don’t even listen to myself anymore, I don’t even know what I’m trying to prove , to who ? for what? Till when? I can’t bring myself together to answer these question, what is happening to me?
As much as I want to admit that I know the reason, I’m still confused.
What is love? How do you define love? How do you open up your heart and shut it when you don’t want love to effect your life?
How did someone leave a huge impact to my heart? All these while I thought that I have this strong and untouchable heart, guess I’m wrong.
For all of these complicated question, I believe that I know the main and only reason for feeling the way I feel now.
I guess its easier to drown in misery and fill your heart and mind with negativity rather than standing tall and firm with positivity. As much as it takes a lot of energy to instill positive thinking in life, human beings would rather jump into a pool of negative thoughts, and this is not merely an assumption.
I convinced myself that in order to safeguard my heart, I would never give it away to anyone whom I think doesn’t deserve it.
I sometimes questioned the level of stupidity that I have got myself into….. how could I fall for this guy when he doesn’t fulfill the things that I have listed for me to give my heart to? This is ridiculous, sheer nonsense…..
Nothing regrets me more than to have known a person who doesn’t listen to his heart and worships his mind.
Finally, I have concluded that I this guy is not worth it. I consider myself as a loving, caring and most of all the opposite of the guy’s characteristics. I have so much love to give away…. So much comfort to share with… so much hope to present to….
I’m a person who only listens to my heart. Even if I make mistakes, then be it. Human beings do not make mistakes, on the contrary we discover things….. I discovered that it is more painful to have make mistakes by denying ones heart rather than listening to it.
ALLAH illuminates our hearts with light only if we want ourselves to be illuminated with it. By listening to my heart, I know that I will never go wrong and if I go astray, I will definitely find my way back and I will be on the right track again and that is to be Happy living with ALLAH. Someday, very soon….. I will find my Mr. Right who adores ALLAH, loves and appreciates me and cherishes life.
Till the next writing……
I don’t even understand myself, I don’t even listen to myself anymore, I don’t even know what I’m trying to prove , to who ? for what? Till when? I can’t bring myself together to answer these question, what is happening to me?
As much as I want to admit that I know the reason, I’m still confused.
What is love? How do you define love? How do you open up your heart and shut it when you don’t want love to effect your life?
How did someone leave a huge impact to my heart? All these while I thought that I have this strong and untouchable heart, guess I’m wrong.
For all of these complicated question, I believe that I know the main and only reason for feeling the way I feel now.
I guess its easier to drown in misery and fill your heart and mind with negativity rather than standing tall and firm with positivity. As much as it takes a lot of energy to instill positive thinking in life, human beings would rather jump into a pool of negative thoughts, and this is not merely an assumption.
I convinced myself that in order to safeguard my heart, I would never give it away to anyone whom I think doesn’t deserve it.
I sometimes questioned the level of stupidity that I have got myself into….. how could I fall for this guy when he doesn’t fulfill the things that I have listed for me to give my heart to? This is ridiculous, sheer nonsense…..
Nothing regrets me more than to have known a person who doesn’t listen to his heart and worships his mind.
Finally, I have concluded that I this guy is not worth it. I consider myself as a loving, caring and most of all the opposite of the guy’s characteristics. I have so much love to give away…. So much comfort to share with… so much hope to present to….
I’m a person who only listens to my heart. Even if I make mistakes, then be it. Human beings do not make mistakes, on the contrary we discover things….. I discovered that it is more painful to have make mistakes by denying ones heart rather than listening to it.
ALLAH illuminates our hearts with light only if we want ourselves to be illuminated with it. By listening to my heart, I know that I will never go wrong and if I go astray, I will definitely find my way back and I will be on the right track again and that is to be Happy living with ALLAH. Someday, very soon….. I will find my Mr. Right who adores ALLAH, loves and appreciates me and cherishes life.
Till the next writing……
bruneians are blessed
bruneians are blessed...... for able to buy nice cars at a very affordable prices.
malaysians however have no choice but to buy cars with prices triple from the ones being sold in brunei. how unfortunate.....
back in semenanjung, the car that you drive tells a tale on your level of income. if a person drives a vios, he or she is earning about RM 3500-RM4000, Honda Civic 1.7 , the owner earns approximately RM 4000-RM 5500. but over here, anyone can drive a vios, or a city, or a swift... how cool is that....
i grew up with this mentality of adoring cars, thanks to my late father whose passion taught me to continuously enquire about the prices of cars, which i believe quite peculiar for a hobby.
i myself at the moment adoring my new car...... after a year...... Syukur Alhamdulillah....
malaysians however have no choice but to buy cars with prices triple from the ones being sold in brunei. how unfortunate.....
back in semenanjung, the car that you drive tells a tale on your level of income. if a person drives a vios, he or she is earning about RM 3500-RM4000, Honda Civic 1.7 , the owner earns approximately RM 4000-RM 5500. but over here, anyone can drive a vios, or a city, or a swift... how cool is that....
i grew up with this mentality of adoring cars, thanks to my late father whose passion taught me to continuously enquire about the prices of cars, which i believe quite peculiar for a hobby.
i myself at the moment adoring my new car...... after a year...... Syukur Alhamdulillah....
Tired of Ajinomoto!!!!!
No more Ajinomoto, i told myself!!!!!
it has been a year, and im still waiting for the new signboard to arrive!!!
everytime someone asks about the location and description of the college that im teaching in, i would answer , the moment u see the AJINOMOTO sign, turn right onto Simpang 51-22, in other words, we're doing free advertising and promotion for Ajinomoto.
everyone knows despite the fact that ajinomoto is bad for health, it is a very famous brand, hehehehehe..........................
ive been begging, informing...... havent cry yet...... for the new signboard.......but what can i do...... until the time comes..... i will always have to say 'once u see the ajinomoto sign.....turn right!!!'
arrghhhhhhhh..................................... tension.............................
it has been a year, and im still waiting for the new signboard to arrive!!!
everytime someone asks about the location and description of the college that im teaching in, i would answer , the moment u see the AJINOMOTO sign, turn right onto Simpang 51-22, in other words, we're doing free advertising and promotion for Ajinomoto.
everyone knows despite the fact that ajinomoto is bad for health, it is a very famous brand, hehehehehe..........................
ive been begging, informing...... havent cry yet...... for the new signboard.......but what can i do...... until the time comes..... i will always have to say 'once u see the ajinomoto sign.....turn right!!!'
arrghhhhhhhh..................................... tension.............................
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