HE’S NOT WORTH TO GIVE MY WHOLE HEART TO…

Why am I feeling this way?
I don’t even understand myself, I don’t even listen to myself anymore, I don’t even know what I’m trying to prove , to who ? for what? Till when? I can’t bring myself together to answer these question, what is happening to me?

As much as I want to admit that I know the reason, I’m still confused.
What is love? How do you define love? How do you open up your heart and shut it when you don’t want love to effect your life?

How did someone leave a huge impact to my heart? All these while I thought that I have this strong and untouchable heart, guess I’m wrong.

For all of these complicated question, I believe that I know the main and only reason for feeling the way I feel now.

I guess its easier to drown in misery and fill your heart and mind with negativity rather than standing tall and firm with positivity. As much as it takes a lot of energy to instill positive thinking in life, human beings would rather jump into a pool of negative thoughts, and this is not merely an assumption.


I convinced myself that in order to safeguard my heart, I would never give it away to anyone whom I think doesn’t deserve it.


I sometimes questioned the level of stupidity that I have got myself into….. how could I fall for this guy when he doesn’t fulfill the things that I have listed for me to give my heart to? This is ridiculous, sheer nonsense…..

Nothing regrets me more than to have known a person who doesn’t listen to his heart and worships his mind.

Finally, I have concluded that I this guy is not worth it. I consider myself as a loving, caring and most of all the opposite of the guy’s characteristics. I have so much love to give away…. So much comfort to share with… so much hope to present to….

I’m a person who only listens to my heart. Even if I make mistakes, then be it. Human beings do not make mistakes, on the contrary we discover things….. I discovered that it is more painful to have make mistakes by denying ones heart rather than listening to it.

ALLAH illuminates our hearts with light only if we want ourselves to be illuminated with it. By listening to my heart, I know that I will never go wrong and if I go astray, I will definitely find my way back and I will be on the right track again and that is to be Happy living with ALLAH. Someday, very soon….. I will find my Mr. Right who adores ALLAH, loves and appreciates me and cherishes life.

Till the next writing……